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Re: Charlie's World

Post by Charlie FiftyWatts on Wed Jan 03, 2018 3:15 am

I've got my sites on this, for my vocal:



It doubles your guitar (or vocal)
and lets you move one track slightly out of time & tune,
and add a little reverb,
so it'll really sound like two different guys playing.  
..The Beatles came up with this method of track doubling at Abbey Road Studio.
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Post by Charlie FiftyWatts on Wed Jan 03, 2018 3:21 am


I'm also putting a pickup in the acoustic, and getting an amp stand for my Fishman, to get it off the floor to project sound out to an audience. I really think it's time to go play out.

I'll be running a little open mic route at first. Probably paying a fortune for taxis. But hey.. you know, I could have eaten better instead of getting this stuff, but then where would the money be? (Yup, flushed down the lavvy). So, yea, it took YEARS of going without to get a rig, but I got it now, and the next 12 years are it. Something to do...

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Post by Charlie FiftyWatts on Wed Jan 03, 2018 3:27 am


It was below zero fahrenheit here last night, and my new Guild Starfire IV guitar
is in a Fed Ex truck bouncing around.  *nervous sigh* Sweetwater told me under
these conditions you have to leave the box UNOPENED FOR 24 HOURS, while the
instrument acclimatizes....to be safe (it could crack).  They gotta be kidding me!
*sigh* I will do what they told me though. It's BRUTALLY COLD out there.

(Oh and tomorrow? BLIZZARD!! *heavy heavy sigh* )

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Re: Charlie's World

Post by Charlie FiftyWatts on Fri Jan 05, 2018 3:19 am


My new Guild guitar arrived safely. It has a wobbly switch, but works fine anyway.  
I'll keep it and replace the switch later if it needs it.
Other than that one sour note to the experience, this guitar is beautiful.
Its claim to fame with me is sound quality. Wow it's there!

It has a shorter feeling neck than the Casino.

(I definitely have new appreciation for that Casino lately.
It's as playable a guitar as anyone could want.
It feels like a million bucks in your hands.
Not to dismiss the Guild by comparison though.)


The Guild is amazing, and truly sounds it. That's why I got it.
And - unlike Epiphones - it came in a decent quality case.
I'm seriously happy with it. There's no further need
to consider "getting a better solid body",
or any other guitar, now. This is it.
This is my axe. My primary guitar.

Like I said, it has humbuckers. But they're tame, so they sound sweet and tasty.




SO what about that Beatles film I posted earlier.
THAT'S MASSIVE. Did you really check it out? Oh do, it's epic!

Seems like the long hair is making Ringo a bit girly
(though at least they didn't nail his drums down in the wrong place again).

George is clearly the working man with the guitar.

The security guys are overly visible and many, and they dress like "parents".
..so it's weird to see all those "parents chaperoning" (yea, actually, back then,
I'm not wording it any different than it really was...the older generation insisted we
would always be 'the children', and scoffed at all we did as if it was silly).

Of course, in the case of The Beatles, a wall of security men really was needed,
or else hordes of orgasming girls would have swarmed the stage and molested them
with nipples and pussies, screaming "Oh my god!" "Oh, my god!"

Shocked  Em.. what were we talking about?  Shocked  


What I get a gas out of is the harmony vocal Paul does.
Such simple tunes, going over so well.
Amazing scene.


Note to self:
time travel destinations...

1.   Grand Funk Railroad concert  
2.   Beatles!
3.   Terminate Hoover, Bush and the Republicons 
     to save the Kennedies and democracy.
4.   Go hang out with Neil and those guys, in the mid & late 60's.
5.   Have sex with Maria Muldaur.
6.   Hang with Joni Mitchell.
7.   Stop Star Trek from being cancelled
8.   A 4th season of Lost In Space

9.   Stop rap from starting
10. Buy as many shares of Microsoft as possible.





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Re: Charlie's World

Post by Charlie FiftyWatts on Sat Jan 27, 2018 12:53 pm

Going back to the Casino again...that guitar is massive. I made no mistake. It's freakin' heroic! Has a long scale neck, so it feels as big as it is;  plays as easily as anyone could want,  and to boot it makes a great practice guitar (Well.. an unamped acoustic may be quieter than an electric, but it'll cut its way through walls and ceilings just the same. But this Casino, unplugged, is like a nicely quieted acoustic. Very playable, very satisfying, with a fun twist available (the whammy). [You can do a lot with a whammy...it's much more than just a hand-operated tremolo]. So..it isn't too loud so that you'll have to be listened to. You can suck out loud as needed; nobody's judging whether you're putting on a good, or very redundant, concert for them.  Rolling Eyes  It's a damn nice practice guitar.

And as a performance instrument.. use it for a clean guitar and it's sweet. You'll hear all six strings individually, yet in concert with each other, just as you should, with no muddling and garbling at all. If you want to use pedals or add some dirt, it'll go there. Just remember though, a little bite, or modulation is fine, but if you want a lot of dirt, use the Guild instead.
It's got the center block and HB's to be a good "electric guitar". It's made for sweet bluesy grit.
It'll sound pretty damn good, without the garble most humbucker guitars plague you with.

To sum up, use each axe for what it's actually made to do, and you'll be happy.


The Les Paul..I'm gonna shield and rewire that one next week, and see if there's an improvement. If there's enough, and it starts to seem a little more worth investing in, and doesn't actually need different pickups bought for it (those'd be another $450), then I'll consider buying a surface-mount Floyd Rose... because with a whammy like that, and a saturated Marshall to play through, gassy stuff happens, seemingly without even trying. You just touch that whammy and wowee! And I've been wanting to get in on the dive bombing saturated Marshall music thing for a while. A lot of electric fun to be had I think. But, we'll see if that guitar shows enough promise to deserve the extra attention. Otherwise, even without a Floyd Rose fun bar, it's still gotta be SOMEwhat better, and not crackle any more and have crooked knobs (god damn piece of Chinese junk). Point is, I'm stuck with it as my only solid body electric I'll be getting. If I had 2 grand, I'd for sure get a Strat, but it isn't in the cards. Guitar Center doesn't pay any real money at all for trades, so I've got all I'm getting now, and I'm stuck with all of it. So I'll stabilize the crackly Les Paul with better wire and just use it to practice some lead and bend whole cords like a punk, which used to be fun.

That just leaves an amp to consider. We know the only amp which is an amp is a tube head. But we know I'd need a $1,000 attenuator to reliably make it work okay with the amp's speakers disconnected (ie, through headphones). That added need would bring the cost of a tube amp to a minimum of $2,000 - 3,000. And I can't go there.  But I did invest in all analog pedals that will make the most out of the guitar's sound. And I have a choice of two amps to send my signal into a clean channel. Will that sound great? or cheezy? I don't yet know. I'll have to go play out loud somewhere a while to know what I truly got. And I hope I can.  But yea, it could be a fail, and sound cheezy. ..Even the Fishman I rave about could just sound tinky because it's small. (If it does actually sound pretty amazing, I MAY go another $1,000 for a second Fishman, on a second stand...so I'd have two amps. The Keeley Doubler pedal  -and the EHX organ pedal, with its wet and dry outputs - would really shine through a stereo setup (two amps). But mostly I'm psyched at the thought of that Keeley Doubler having the chance to expand to full potential.


And even just in general, I'd have a wider sounding, fuller, 20 - 20k stereo amp sound system.



Though still...solid state.
But I'm just not okay with another $3,000 for a tube 1/2-stack.
I don't see a band happening.
I'm just out to play what I got into a recorder, and some open mics for a bit.
And a Fishman has two full channels, so guitar AND vocal are covered
without need of a sound system & board.  
So this is what I CAN DO.


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     A 2nd Fishman would cost $934 (3 x $311).  Plus MAY need a cord, DI, or switcher.



USES:

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~Keeley Doubler - has stereo out, and would shine!!

 ...whole guitar output could split to two amps, with cords have.

Very Happy


~EHX C9 Organ Pedal - has dry and wet outputs (guitar in one amp, organ in other)

Very Happy


~VOCAL: would require a Y connector.

AND IF USE DOUBLER ON IT, would have to temp connect the Keeley between mic and two amps.

BUT IF DOUBLER STAYS ON PEDALBOARD TO SPLIT GUITAR INTO STEREO,
then vocal just Y's to 2nd channel of both amps.



You know what? --> If I start playing shows for a few years, this would be great!  Cool

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Re: Charlie's World

Post by Charlie FiftyWatts on Sat Jan 27, 2018 9:07 pm


Dean was here. He tried to break my pedalboard, but he brought me news. It seems
my asshole father's nursing home took the house from my retarded nazi 'brother',
so he FAILED at his hard worked at evil plot to leave me in the woods to die while he
gets a free house I should have had. HE FAILED.  And then...ready? HE DIED!!

THERE IS A GOD!!


*leaping around, celebrating, yelling yee-hoo at Hitler's miserable
failure and subsequent, hopefully painful, demise*  YAY!!
*dances like Snoopy*  FUCK YOU DAVE!!  HA HA!!  
BWAAA HA HA!!  YOU LOSE!!!!!!!  FUCKING RETARD!!!!!

WOO!!!!  HE'S DEAD. THE MOTHER FUCKING RETARD IS DEAD!!
 

AND HE NEVER GOT THE HOUSE!!!  


YES!!!!!!!




I'm the cute one on the right (oh come on, I was 2).
On the left is Hitler's retarded reincarnation, who in the shot
is speaking of crapping, which everyone wants to hear about.
And just because I look like I have a brick in my hand I'm
considering heaving at his stupid head, doesn't mean it
was a brick the house at all needed. *blink*

Thank you Sharon. Very Happy  This news, lightens my load.
He didn't win. He didn't get away with it, or GAIN from it at least.
And maybe he was miserable and hurting. And it may seem terrible of me,
to like that idea, but I assure you..YAY!!!  I COULDN'T BE HAPPIER
TO FIND THIS OUT!!  WOO HOO!! HE DIDN'T WIN!
THE ROTTEN FUCKER LOST,
AND DIED IN MISERY! YEA!!!!!!!!!!!!



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Post by Charlie FiftyWatts on Sat Jan 27, 2018 9:38 pm

You know what this means? That retarded nazi bastard put himself through nearly 20 years of living in that dilapidated, rancid hell hole with dying elderly parents stinking it up (oh, there was crap on the floor, and the father NEVER bathed. It was HORRIBLE). And he lived in that rancid dump FOR TWENTY LONG YEARS, putting his money and free time into it, all the while thinking he would be getting a house this way. And he lied to the cops, abused people, committed crimes, broke the family apart, didn't help his parents IN ANY WAY (my mother would cry because he'd ignore her, he wouldn't just say 'hello', 'how are ya mum?', and she'd cry, and he'd waddle upstairs without caring a bit. And I'd wish his sock would get stuck on a nail, causing him to fall down those stairs and break his horrible neck and be paraplegic and unable to do anything but lay there and feel sorry. But it didn't happen. Well this is a bit late for an outcome I'd find FAIR, now, but it will do. The rotten fucker lived in a hell with a stench for 20 years, and all he got for it was that horrible time for a life, and no free house, and then dead.  YES!!!

YES YES YES YES YES!!!!!

LIE ABOUT ME AND GET ME THROWN OUT OF MY HOME, AND KEEP ALL MY STUFF, EH?

HA!!!!!!!  FUCK YOU!!!!!!!

ENJOY HELL, FAILED RETARD BOY!

YOU EARNED IT!  

Very Happy  


I HOPE YOUR DEATH WAS EXCRUCIATING.


HERE'S YOUR OBITUARY, ASSHOLE!!









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Re: Charlie's World

Post by Charlie FiftyWatts on Thu Feb 01, 2018 5:52 pm

I've talked about Dean a bit, and now he wants back in I guess, well...you may think some of the comments here are over the top hateful and wishing him ill, but let me just tell you what he does then...

First, I want to point out that he has $90,000 stashed away. He lives in a house, in his own personal forest, with acres of lakefront property, where he has so much privacy he can play acoustic drums at 3 AM. He has that, plus affords a car, a drug habit, and all that savings.

MEANWHILE, I - his 35 year best friend - live in a particularly poor city area, with no car, and insufficient food. It's so dangerous here I can't even go outside to take a walk.  And I certainly can't afford to ever go anywhere. And this is literally killing me. A daily walk had kept me healthy all my life; but now I'm in terrible condition and failing, after 11 years trapped indoors, in a city slum area, with only shit for food, and no joy, sun, or fresh air & exercise. I'm so tired and dilapidated, honestly, I wonder how much longer I will live. I'm 58, but my health seems like 78. And it's all, as always, for lack of money. I'm impoverished. I'll never have a car again, haven't seen the sky in 11 years, and no longer have friends or family. There are shootings and muggings outside, so "there is no outside". That's how it is for me.

Meanwhile Dean has it MADE. Yet he lies to trick me into working a total of 200 hours fixing up old trash XP computer towers for him (and even paying out of my pocket to add parts) because he wants me to imagine he can neither pay for a computer, nor do his own work. And I received, for this massive fucking favor he didn't actually need: a sandwich and "thank you". And if he legitimately couldn't afford anything, actually, that would have been fine. -> But he had no need for such help. At all. Yet I did this for him, to get him started having a computer (because he LIED to me about not knowing why anyone needs one, to trick me into this, have NO DOUBT). But I helped him, and I fully expected (and he was told) he'd need to buy a real computer at some point, having learned that they're a necessary life item. But nope, he just wanted to bring me another and yet another XP tower out of the trash,  to work on for another hundred hours. And maybe I'd get a can of Mountain Dew for the effort.

And all the while he REALLY DOES have $90,000 stashed away. And I know him, I can tell you: it isn't about financial responsibility at all, it's so he can quit working. And he isn't just taking advantage of people like that; he also SHOPS IN DUMPSTERS, and even takes food bank food from the needy. And I kind of hate him for this. There's nothing about his character to admire or even just respect. He's a sleazy lying loafer, and he hurts people - for laughs, and to take advantage of them.

And with all he's got,
things could have happened so differently...


He could have let me rent a cabin there, or a room, so I could play out loud, and walk daily instead of being near dead with unhealth now from the ill way I have to live. (And my subsidy would have payed him $450 a month for it. He'd have gotten $22,000 in the last 4 years, plus $450 every month into the future, ongoing. It would have been great for him. Plus for me, it would have cut how long it's taken me to buy my shit down to two years, instead of four. And I'd have been playing, walking, staying thin, getting to LIVE. He could have done the online show with me we planned for years. And gone through with the "we'll do a band" offer, since he's had his time at it, but I never did. I struggled for 4 years to buy the needed shit for it, at his suggestion. And I've only got what time I've got left. He COULD have helped his best friend have a bit of fun getting to live for a year or two finally. (AND himself.) (Oh, he lives like a teenager who isn't ever going to grow up or do ANYTHING for real).

But instead...
he lies to trick me into wasting my time and resources,
he breaks my stuff,
laughs about these things,
AND has me do his work,
AND EVEN PAY FOR IT.


So if you're wondering why I've fucking hated him, don't.


Dean was never actually my friend.  He's a psychopath. And I am not the first one he's hurt and then laughed about it. In fact the reason he could never finish grade school (he got kicked out of several, until there wasn't a school left that would take him) WASN'T merely "because he was a class clown (and so disruptive)"; he was hurting people and laughing about it, and was judged to be a disruptive influence AND a danger to the other students. So he was BANNED from every school in the area.

He has always had a behavior issue, and used to scream so badly as a kid, he gave himself a medical problem. He also stole his own grandmother's car and drove it into a swamp, and then claimed he "was just drunk" (but even drunk, a normal person wouldn't purposely destroy their Grandmother's car. But he did. And then he went on to wreck people's things AND LAUGH here and there for the rest of his life, because he gets pleasure this way. And he has no remorse or empathy for others. You can't even explain to him successfully why he should feel bad for such behavior, and apologize and make amends to those he's harmed and then laughed like the sicko he actually is. He simply doesn't get it, and lies continuously. And I've come to understand he has no capacity to get it. Dean calls this "his sense of humor". It's something Sarah mentioned (she put it: "he's entirely selfish, cares nothing about others). Then Dave Hemingway warned me.. "Dean's a psychopath".   ..but at the time I just thought Dave was mad at him and exaggerating comically. Dean had destroyed a prized artifact of Dave's ON PURPOSE, and got joy from the act. And Dave told me "He's a psychopath. He's a lunatic. I'm serious. Look it up."  ..Well, in recent time, I did. And he actually is.


So let's talk about my stuff Dean wrecked...

I got my first ever brand new guitar and he offered to save me the $50 it costs to get it set up. And I thought "he MUST know what he's doing after thirty years", plus he was SUPPOSED TO BE my best friend all that time so I oughta' be able to trust him; so I said "Great!". And he took it home, then brought it back with the pickups set to sound really terrible, plus all the knobs were now bent, and one broken off entirely, and the guitar had no output, and he had yanked on the strings the way one pull starts a lawn mower. And I had to pay a repair shop to fix at least some of what he did to my first ever BRAND NEW GUITAR, but it never sounded right (because what he did to the pickups wasn't spotted) (and because the pots ("knobs") really are messed up, all of them)...so it has sat for years, ruined and unused. Some favor huh?

Then I leave some stuff at his house and he PURPOSELY throws it around and breaks that some too. (He's psychopathic. This is FUN for him. It makes him laugh.) (I'm serious.)

And on top of damaging your stuff and having a laugh if you let him near anything, he is also a compulsive liar. You cannot be friends with someone who lies continually. You can't make plans, you can't even have a conversation. ..because everything he says, you just end up having to think "well, it may be true, but it probably isn't, what the hell is he even doing here?"  -> I'm an adult, and not a retard. I don't wish to be tricked constantly with fiction I'm to try and make fit with reality. IT MAKES ME DAMNED ANGRY. And if you make plans with a liar, a psychopathic one at that, you only find he'll encourage you to do work, pay money, plan, wait, be excited, for months or a year...and then you finally get there, and he says "Oh I didn't really want to do that!"  And he laughs because he destroyed you, and took a years worth of money and time from you. And if you point out what he has done, he will answer with lie upon lie. He will say what he did to fuck you up, is something other people, a nearby squirrel, or even you, actually did. He will deflect and bullshit like a practiced master of the KellyAnne Conway school of LYING. And he won't give a flying crap that he's actually greatly harmed you.

So I throw him out.

But in time, he comes back. I soften, I let him in. And while he's here he trashes my Casino (It has irreparable cosmetic damage to the chrome, plus a gouge and a scratch in the painted finish. And he'd purposely put thirty WET fingerprints all over it. It looked like he'd been eating chicken. I COULDN'T GET THEM OFF! And yup, he laughed). And don't even bother blaming me, for chrissake, I was standing right next to him, he only had it 15 minutes. He was helping me test the new pedalboard. We were trying to be friends again. But in that short time - while he pretended to be wiping it down - he was actually turning my beauteous instrument into a pain-ruined damaged artifact, where my cool cool thing used to be. It no longer feels perfect, and "mine"; it feels like some harm someone maliciously caused me, for a sicko laugh. And I haven't touched it since. (except to sweat and swear for a solid hour cleaning his mess off, and trying to hide the ding and the scratch he made. ..but they can't be hidden).

That Casino used to call to me daily, and it was 'MINE'. But now, it just feels awful.



I've ended up getting the Guild now.

HE WILL NEVER EVER TOUCH THAT.
BECAUSE HE WILL NEVER EVER BE ALLOWED IN MY HOME -EVER, EVER AGAIN.
IF HE SHOWS UP, I'LL GET A STAY AWAY ORDER.
AND HAVE HIM FIRED
AND MADE HOMELESS.

AN ASSHOLE LIKE THAT DOES NOT DESERVE A LAKEFRONT HOUSE.

I WILL TAKE IT AWAY FROM HIM.

AND I WILL LAUGH!


You see ( the Casino incident), he had pretended to clean the guitar up, and then left it on the bed, but when I went to put it in its case after he left, I found all he'd done to harm it, and me. I had heard him laughing. Now I knew why. So I tell him, GET OUT.

But he calls me a few days ago, again, and says he has news (which no one else is ever going to inform me of). So I let him in (though he wasn't going to be touching anything). Well, not to be stopped from having what he calls "fun" (his "sense of humor"), he kicks my pedal board, TWICE, on the way by it. YANKS all the wires.  ..And then I go online to confirm that my brother had actually died (there's always a google hit on a death, of some type. If not an obituary or a funeral home listing, there'll at least be a site that lists info, showing him as deceased. Also if the house HAS been taken for debt, I'd see it listed.

BUT I SEE NEITHER.
It's possible he made it all up, just to get in.
He's such a compulsive treacherous liar without conscience, I cannot just take his word.

You know what?


I should get a stay away order, AND have him fired, right now.

Don't even talk to him first. THAT FUCKING PIECE OF GARBAGE!!!!!!!!!!!

HE KICKED MY PEDAL BOARD!!   ON PURPOSE!!  

TWICE!!  HE YANKED ALL THE WIRES!!

WOULD YOU JUST LET IT GO?




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A PSYCHOPATH IS:

someone who lacks the ability to feel empathy for others, and so also remorse for things they do.
They lie, manipulate and FAKE that they feel to get what they want by deceit.
They need stimulation externally, because inwardly they lack it.
They'll commit heinous ("anti-social") acts because this gives them that stimulation,
and then they'll laugh & show actual enjoyment, in a way you don't usually see.
Dean describes this as "(just) his sense of humor".
Psychopathy sheds light on why he had great women, but never kept one;
and that he never had any plans for "where he'd be in 5 years".
Psychopaths aren't normal, so they don't lead normal lives.
Dean does not have a mental disorder. His behavior can not be improved with drugs.
Psychopathy is a personality disorder. His upbringing will have had some part in forming him,
but it's incorrect to simplify his condition as stemming from that. His brain is defective, untreatably.


PSYCHOPATH CHARACTERISTICS






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Re: Charlie's World

Post by Shakey Pete on Fri Feb 02, 2018 9:39 pm




Charlie, you gotta not allow him at your house any more. He's an uncontrollable danger,
wrecking your stuff like that. And it wrecks YOU. And he isn't helping you, he's helping himself,
to whatever he can trick you out of (work, money). See, you thought we weren't listening, eh?  
You should cut him off clean immediately by whatever means necessary.


*shits on dean's scabby life*

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Post by Charlie FiftyWatts on Mon Feb 05, 2018 7:23 am

You know it isn't even just that, Pete. He told me we'd do a band of all my originals, so I struggled without things to save and buy stuff, and started studying modern equipment morning to night every day as months (and then years) are going by. And I get there and he tells me he doesn't want to do MY music because HE has "musical integrity". (No, he has NO integrity, of any kind). But we get there to play, and he's mocking me, and acting like a primadonna, and dishonoring me; and I finally tell the useless drug-addled 50 year old teenage mental case that I don't understand any of this...and he says "You don't need to understand. It only matters that I do."

Later he adds that he "has no use for me on guitar" AS IF THIS IS HIS BAND. But it isn't. I never wanted anything to do with his pathetic democratic cover band. That's the lowest loser form of musical life, giving everyone a say and playing no originals. What the hell for!!!!??  

But with chronic idiot liars, it can take time to uncover what they REALLY are wanting to get for themself by all the trickery and deceit.  And it turns out the lying, the manipulation - saying one thing, but it's really something else - was ALL his dumb ill-conceived plotting to trick me into joining that awful idiots convention, as a singer.      WHAT A MORON.

Well he didn't gain a singer, he cost himself a 35 year best friend.
And where I always knew he was as uneducated as Jethro Clampett,
I never thought he was dumb, just unschooled. But nope: RETARD.


And what use is that TO ME?!!


So it isn't just that he's dangerous and needs to be kept away. It's also very much the lying.
Manipulation, by a mentally deranged retard who doesn't even live as an adult.

I'm an adult.  

I won't be around ANYONE who'd feed me fiction to trick me.

And I don't need retards as friends!!!


And that goes for Dumb Lying Dave,
thieving other Dave, and Blob the molester too!

JESUS FUCKING CHRIST!!!

I DESERVE BETTER!!!!!

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Post by Charlie FiftyWatts on Mon Feb 05, 2018 8:59 am

I suppose what I'm gonna say now could be spun as nutty by someone stupid, but I do have some (albeit generic) spiritual sense.

You can't prove there's a giant spaghetti monster in the sky. You're childish & frankly idiotic if you think a myth created by cavemen, with details that are SO OBVIOUSLY CRAP, is real.

But we are intuitive. And there is Jungian synchronicity you can experience. And the "think of it and it will become" thing seems to have real experiencable basis. I see no reason to deny things you can kick, fuck or eat (ie, things that don't require "believing", without evidence).  So a book or two on "generic spirituality" can actually be helpful stuff along the way.

That waking life isn't all that different from how sleeping life is really a matter of "think of it and it becomes", is evident.
[You knock on wood, and say "be careful what you wish for", because you already know this is true  - and even fear it, because you haven't mastered its use.]  

And there is symbolism the subconscious uses to give messages to the conscious.  A symbol my subconscious uses to alert me of impending "change" is literally spotting change in my path (a quarter, specifically).  Does that seem silly? It shouldn't. It's not mystical; it's your subconscious using visually available symbolism to get a message to the conscious for needed attention. It has this function. It 'thinks' of your situation all the time, while you're consciously unaware of it, until it nudges you this way. Call it "inner wisdom", call it what you will, your inner you is smart, and to be used and relied on.  

So..when I find a quarter as I walk, I usually notice that big change soon occurs.

And none of this is religion or belief. It's life.


So...Recently I went shopping with DUMB LYING DAVE (he took me to buy my shit once monthly for years) (but now I guess he has tired of that, and me, and no longer calls. No explanation. (Why would there be. Liars don't just say what a thing is, like an adult.) So.. we go shopping last month, and I find not one, BUT TWO quarters. And everything was fine, and I didn't attach any meaning to it at all (except, "Hey, free fifty cents!"). But next thing I know, BOOM, BIG CHANGE! Now I have no ride! And I am having to drastically change how I get things done.

Laundry: I now have to pay a service to pick it up, wash it and bring it back (it isn't bad though, 35 dollars a month).

Grocery shopping: I have to walk to the supermarket, and take a cab home with a month's worth of food to freeze (everything is done monthly).

Everything else (non-foods):  order it online and Fed Ex brings it.

So..it can be done.


But I haven't got a single friend left at all now.

Well maybe that's the second quarter eh? (oh, usually it's just one. So: one quarter, one change.) But I found two. So first I change how I shop and do wash. And then TWO: I get new friends.  ..who aren't retarded and liars. (That one will take some ongoing effort, right away.)

So..that's where my life is headed. ...away from dummies, more independent, and some new smart funny (& oh please musical) friends - instead of florping idiots who lie and can't understand anything.

I will start going to open mics and coffee places, and places, next month. (The music buying is all done, and the apartment needs before it. It's insured even, and I am now financially free to save some emergency funds, and go out a bit (FINALLY!)
It took eleven years of being deprived and scraping. I don't even have cable or get a pizza. But things can change now.

I'll be advertising for a discussion group, and/or musicians and those of comedic bent...
I want a Saturday morning rap session weekly,
AND a game day
- with SMART, FUNNY, MUSICAL FRIENDS I DESERVE.

And I have started arranging a will, to leave my music equipment to a school...and in that pursuit I met a band leader  I might send another e-mail to soon. I have something to share about school bands and band leaders (mine died and I wrote a piece about the effect his work had had (though he never got to know). He was my most influential and appreciated teacher. Things he gave me affected the whole rest of my life. She might like to know her work probably has life long positive effects on some of her students this way, though they never get to tell her.  ..Anyway it wouldn't hurt to talk to someone who has a real life, rather than just another of the retarded welfare recipients all around me here  Rolling Eyes

The only way to end up with new friends is to start going out and putting out feelers. So there's one.

I might call Sharon Adamsky too. She has an interesting job in the field of spirituality and health.
And there is Patty May, whom I have always sincerely liked, but never invited to a New Year's Eve
or a tea or a game day...and why not?

OF course I will need some guy friends, not just these three women (but though they happen to be female, so what, they have educated professional minds, and they're likeable.)


So...
I've been gestating for 4 years,
and now some resulting evolving happens.


Yay!




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Post by Charlie FiftyWatts on Sat Feb 17, 2018 1:14 pm


It may not look like much, but I've collected enough luthier's tools now
to be able to do set ups and rewirings and general soldering,
and also to be able to identify if a need exists for fretwork
(if one comes up, more tools'd be needed to actually do that work..
but until or unless such a problem arises, I've got enough now
-and even a lighted work bench -  to service my own instruments.

*blink*


Oh I was waiting for the "servicing my own instrument" jokes.   Arrow



Tools & Work Area..




And today this beauteous digital caliper finally arrived. Sweet!




The way I figure it, I've got:

1. a strap anchor to move to a tricky location, on the bass

2. its case (with misaligned hinges) to repair

3. it also needs a thumb rest and de-tuner lever added

4. an Epiphone with lousy electronics to replace, and shielding to add

5. an acoustic pickup to install, which involves reaming a tapered hole for the jack

6. a switch to replace, on a semi-hollow, which will be tricky

7. FIVE THOROUGH SETUPS to do

8. two more waxings

9. possible pedal board work...


And once I've done all those jobs myself, with tools I bought
INSTEAD OF paying to have the work done,
the tools will essentially have been gotten for FREE.
And I can continue to use them,
instead of paying AT ALL anymore,
to have another man do my stuff.  Wink


Plus it pleases me that I even got a few smaller tools for working on circuit boards as well;
which adds the possibility of designing my own circuit for something(s). Or building pedals even.
(though the market for that is NOAH'S ARK FLOODED presently). But still, to be able
to do electronics one's self is pretty cool stuff for an old man to amuse himself with for a hobby.

When it's cold and snowy outside, I'll be here soldering together who knows what.  Very Happy

Perhaps I'll win a Nobel for creating the world's first WORKING tin foil hat.

Or maybe I'll just build a better remote-controlled mouse toy for the cat.

Or finally perfect the faltering light-speed drive I installed in my arm chair.


You never know!




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Post by Charlie FiftyWatts on Sat Feb 17, 2018 2:06 pm


But anyway....

CHANGE!




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Post by Charlie FiftyWatts on Mon Feb 26, 2018 10:43 am



FINALLY, HERE'S THE RIG I SUFFERED FOR FOUR YEARS TO GET:








And though I won't get it unless I play out regularly,
a second Fishman on a stand is part of this rig.
The Keeley Doubler can create magic that way.





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Post by The Moose on Fri Mar 02, 2018 12:22 pm

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"When it's cold and snowy outside, I'll be here soldering...  Very Happy

Perhaps I'll win a Nobel for creating the world's first WORKING tin foil hat.

Or finally perfect the faltering light-speed drive I installed in my arm chair."
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Post by Charlie FiftyWatts on Wed Mar 14, 2018 5:15 pm


THIS IS WHAT I PICTURE (with a second Fishman
to complete a solo sound system):




And a sweet solo sound system that would be,
because those Fishmans reproduce 20 - 20K of the sound spectrum (all of it)
through a woofer/mid-range/tweeter speaker set in each amp.
This'd all be driven by a total of 360 watts (180 in each of two amps,
with each amp having two distinct channels that use 90 watts each of the power)
So it's bold and powerful, but makes sense being that way.
And these are closed cabinets (so, like Bose, they project sound magically).  
So while I don't have a tube head (apartment living precludes that), I at least have
analog pedals, most of them high end. And the amp has actual transistors, and good engineering.

This is an unusual rig I assembled,
for a guy doing guitar, vocal & harmonica - SOLO.
*(One of those pedals makes the guitar an organ too.)

It could just be really great.  We'll see.

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Post by Charlie FiftyWatts on Sun Mar 18, 2018 4:01 pm


For $499 one can get a Paul Reed Smith SE Standard 24:

~all mahogany (sustains ALL day)

~dive-bombing whammy

~split coil pickups

~doesn't weigh a jillion pounds

~gig bag you can actually use

A vastly better guitar than a shitty Chinese Epiphone.
A guitar to be excited about.
A guitar to have fun with.
A guitar that is a guitar.

HAVE A LISTEN!



The grey guitar played first is the SE Standard 24 I'm talking about.
((The sunburst is PRS's Les Paul (the "245"), which has no whammy or pull pot, but great sustain.
And the red guitar is a 22 fret version of the SE Standard, which doesn't interest me.




So... if my Les Paul isn't great after changing the wiring,
it could be traded for one of these.

1.




2.




3.




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Post by Charlie FiftyWatts on Wed Mar 28, 2018 8:41 am


Today I was looking at the numbers for being a luthier (someone who fixes guitars).
I think locally someone who specializes in fret work might find a niche.
I also think fixing guitars up and re-selling them could be tried.
But I'm old and tired and dreaming of things I won't really have.
Guitar music is all but vanished. The pedal boom that was has waned.

Still, the numbers are:

One would need to charge $100 an hour, for 30 labor hours weekly - no more no less.
(The other 10 hours a week, out of 40 needed, would be spent on administrative duties,
shop maintenance, dealing with customers off the clock, and breaks.)

So it really only needs to cost $75 an hour (plus 10% annual COLA's) to pay a good luthier
but 1/4 of the hours you actually work are unpaid,
and 40 hours a week is the most anyone should have to work,
so the hourly rate has to be multiplied by 30 to = an annual salary that pays enough to live.

So the number is $100 an hour plus 10% annual COLA's.

Could I get that much?

Well, it only adds up to $156K annually,
for a 40 hour craftsman & repair tech position.

That's only $16K more than what cops get  ($7.69 per hour more).

It's just enough to cover what life costs.
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Post by Charlie FiftyWatts on Wed Mar 28, 2018 9:03 am


It's such a god damn shame I had a friend who chose destroying my things for sick laughs
instead of getting in on what I've been building up to here.
So much musical life could be had now. I'm equipped finally.
So what does he do? Seeks to wreck yet something else.
He's a retard. And when he dies, nothing will be lost.
Nothing but a pointless scumbag too lazy to even grow up and do anything.
A shiftless, pot-smoking teenager who contributed nothing to life beyond mooching and stealing.
-even from his grandmother. -and the homeless.  
Society will not miss him. No one will.

And the idiocy of his choices should drown in the lake now.
Yes, really. In fact I hope he dry drowns, because that
involves a full week of feeling horrible and frightened.


We could have done a comedy show.
We could have done a band.
We could have done radio.
I got a place stocked with cool cool things
which I deprived myself for a decade to get.
We could have been writing comedy and music, and performing it.

But all he wanted was to insult me,  lie to mewreck my stuff,
and be so stupidly high all the time there was no one actually there.

He wasn't interested in a cool place to go.  ..or any cool things to do.

FUCK YOU DEAN BAGLEY,
YOU GOD DAMN PIECE OF TRASH.


I will never think of you again.


________________________________________________________________________


My task now is to find new people who ARE interested (and talented enough) to get in on :

~ board games that require intelligence and creativity, humor ~

~ fixing up guitars and equipment ~

~ recording songs ~

~ writing humor, and actually bringing it to life, online and at venues ~


I see a Saturday morning hangout, for smart funny musical types here.

I see a game day (or evening) each week too.

And I need friends like I had years ago

-the kind who call up and say "Hey, wanna go somewhere?"

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And  I want to eat better. And live in a house

so I can play music out loud, and go outside.
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Post by Charlie FiftyWatts on Thu Mar 29, 2018 5:30 pm


500-watt bass 1/2 stack on wheels

(If I swapped that useless Marshall for this, I could go play bass!




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Post by Charlie FiftyWatts on Sun Apr 01, 2018 12:58 pm


I didn't expect anyone would read this blog ever, other than a couple musicians  
who never came. But in case a few folks futurely may, you should know who I am.


I'm the kid in grade school who won the spelling bee. My IQ was too high to have peers. The Guidance Counselor suggested I go to college instead of the 12th grade. My 'father' prevented that by saying "we can't afford it, but it's okay because it can't be helped" (that was his battle cry for us, as our leader). The music teacher then told him I was as talented as can be and needed to be backed into a career or I'd end up with a life of typical poor people miseries (dumpy home, alcohol, domestic disturbances, kids getting a raw deal, sickness, divorce, legal and financial predation). But I wasn't likely to get as far as even those things because "Dad" was so lame, he stepped right up and hurled our family motto at the situation:

"WE CAN'T AFFORD TO (BACK YOU INTO A CAREER).
BUT IT'S OKAY BECAUSE IT CAN'T BE HELPED."


I did write 400 songs in my early 20's - on junk equipment. But I couldn't fund a band, no matter what I did.
We had so little money, I actually went to the 8th grade in one set of clothes. And the worthless asshole posing
as "father" told me what he hoped for me was that I'd get a factory job and "weld into it".  Sad

Well I had 47 menial dummy jobs. They weren't all in factories, because the Republicons hocked those to get even richer (and "so what if that wrecked America HA HA!"). So by the 90's I was doing carpentry, which I was good at, but I got treated as "just a laborer" anyway. And it was hard to take it seriously for a life, because I'd be in normal people's homes, remodeling them while they were off working respectable jobs; and there I was, dressed in rags (oh you wear ripped paint-stained clothes to do construction.  I wouldn't even have been allowed to sit on the furniture in those homes) and I was ever
very aware that I CAN'T HAVE SUCH A HOME MYSELF. So I wasn't going to "weld into" that job either.
It made me feel so lowly..without any hope, being a slave instead of using my talents.  And I had talents.  

I wrote music, philosophy, even a comedy show. But there was not yet an internet, PC's & smart phones which provide cameras and editing equipment to all, inexpensively. There was just TV as it was, which required millions of dollars for camera and editing equipment and distribution and advertising which I could NEVER afford. So instead I was a slave, to people WITH lives. And dressed so badly a bank wouldn't let me cash my tiny check one time. I'd be feeling like the DIRT that was all over me as I labored with shovel and hammer, for a pittance of dollars that wasn't enough to do ANYTHING with. I began to drink after "work", to feel some moments of 'happiness' (if not numbness) somehow, because all I ever really felt was pain, all the time. It earned me a seat at AA, which I graduated from 20 years ago now but..that was it. Life doesn't forever remain in the future you know. Life is what happens while you're 'making plans'. And all that "someday" thinking, while this terrible shit was going on, well, that was my life. It went by. In the grimacing poverty I was stuck to like a fly on that filthy sticky tape people hang.

But yea, I had comedy in me to do. So I drew comic strips, because it's a way one can at least
story board some sketch comedy, if he can't afford to produce a show any other way.

And I write music prolifically.

And sometimes I've wanted to do a little Letterman type show online, animate the parts I can't hire for, and put original music on it, and write the jokes, and - like Letterman - go off on a recurring "investigative reports" segment, where we bring a camera somewhere to see what really happens, because it might be funny (for example, we'd go interview people bringing their dog to a stud service. That might be good for jokes. A lot of life's situations might, if you tend to see things that way). And we'd have the band and the guy at the desk, and for guests..oh, just have people pretend to be famous people, and write their lines. Maybe even have guest bands that we act out ourselves ("Sketch Bands"). This way we could interview Ted Nugent and tell him what an asshole he is. Or we could have Michael Jackson on the show, so that ultimately we could tell him to go away.  Shocked  Or another time (as an example - if SNL hadn't already done it), show Blue Oyster Cult recording the cowbell song. There's no end to the possibilities. We could impersonate Trump and arrest him. We could (in the spirit of good old Dave Letterman when he first started, who'd go up on the roof and throw bowling balls on cars just to see how it would be) DO things on a show, and not need expensive actors, or clout to get actual guests, IF WE JUST HAD A SMALL GROUP OF FUNNY PEOPLE ASSEMBLED.  

Well, in the early 90's, as a "stuck fly" in a small town...there was no talented folks to avail. But I got the internet now, a smart phone and PC, yadda. Right? So I could do something now? mm, well, I got old. My whole generation is dying off, I'm tired, I'm old enough to have made plans to will the music equipment I struggled to get to a school. And when you finally get older than denial can cover, you can forget about looking interesting on camera. You'll just look like a pathetic oldster. And that's reality.

Still, I've always dreamed. Somewhere in there is a fading, unlivable hope which remains..of putting interesting stuff online.
And if the face is too old to show, animate it, or create a mystery character to be the face of things. There could be ways.
You still gotta' have cohorts for this though. And right now there's just me and Captain Meow.  

I'm gonna see if I can befriend the school band leader I mentioned - possibly make one, first occasional friend who's NOT retarded, who DOES understand music and intelligent things. And if I regularly get around and meet folks, perhaps I can hand pick some intelligence and humor and talent to associate with. I want to have my Saturday morning bull sessions. And my weekly "game day". And maybe a movie night. And projects. I need peers. I need friends. And though this may SEEM awful to say, retards need not apply!! (Understand: until recently, I had just 2 friends left, both mildly retarded or with mental disorder. And that was it, and now even that's gone. And really people, please - NO MORE!!!!!! My IQ is 164, for Pete's sake!!!!!  

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Post by Charlie FiftyWatts on Wed Apr 04, 2018 9:25 am



I ordered some pens.

Having a decent pen matters to me. I always used Paper Mate because they wrote nicely, no skips, smooth flow. But the last time I ordered refills what I received was trash. Obviously the corporation found cheaper ink to sell me at the same price. It made their stock price go up I suppose, but no more customer here. I gave Office Depot $40 for what should have been a lifetime supply of refills, because they seemed to be getting scarce. But they sent me garbage.

I left a comment on their product page, but they censored it because they don't want anyone to know
"these are hopeless if you want to write, but they're handy for picking doo doo out of your butt, for people with diverticulitis."

I was just tryin' to be helpful.   Shocked

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So now I guess "gel pens" are the thing; and I'm trying out some Uniballs. We'll see.

In the early 90's, before computers, there were no gel pens. Just good old ball points. Pilot came out with colors then, and I bought an assortment. And a book case of binders, and three-hole paper. I used to write by hand. I would block the writing prose-style...so the main body of writing would be in standard blue ink, but when a thought needed explaining it would be in purple, centered as a less-wide block. And if another explanation was needed within that, I'd use a third color (black or red) and make an even smaller block of writing, diagonally off a corner. Then it'd return to the blue ink, the main body of writing which is fully wide, and continue..


Separating things visually is important,
or your efforts will appear as a sea of letters,
daunting intended readers rather than enticing them
with something that seems easy and possibly fun.


And it matters not to stay on one subject too long, because heavy material will tire them non-stop. So give them Homerisms,
an occasional sketch or joke to break it up. Your job as a writer is to make their mind feel it had a great time when it's done.

 jocolor

Horse walks into a bar.
Bartender says,
"Why the long face?"



I wrote things I knew, things I'd found in my college studies.
Around me were uneducated people who thought many knowable things were mysteries.
So I wrote about the knowable they weren't aware of. I even told them what death is like..

"..five last minutes of collapsing brain activity, in a state of sensory deprivation,
so it seems entirely real. You'll experience what you expect, or what you fear.
And it may become jumbled and confusing as it sputters to nought,
so you may be upset, and fade away screaming for no one to hear.
Or you may just walk calmly into a warm sunset and fade out enveloped in bliss.
So work on your expectations in this area.
Because what if what you imagine is what becomes, in this 'final dream'?
You could conjure a wonderful realm to go off to.
Or find in horror how right Roosevelt was.
("all we have to fear is fear itself")


I'd write sometimes for days without sleeping, drinking pots of coffee with shots of brandy.
It was all very artistic, and there probably should have been a cafe nearby with fellow thinkers
to discuss, but..there were only towny simpletons...so I lived on the page.

It would get poetic at points too, as the thoughts gelled to summation, and fused with musical tendency. You see a writing binge is a long think, by the end of which one will have found what was in him to let out...what wisdom the subconscious was processing out of the information it's being exposed to. So I'd get to the end and find I could state in one sentence what just took twelve carefully constructed pages to elaborate. And exhaustion would surface finally, and I'd lyricize.

I don't suppose I'll return to journaling by hand. But I did just order a supply of pens, and I have nice paper and will be picking up a binder tomorrow. I could try. It could always be scanned into the computer, and posted.

Elsewhere at this site, you'll find a thread which is actually the guide book I always thought kids should receive so they don't have to stumble to learn a few rules of human behavior...immutable truths about living which are obscured by people's lies & mother's misrepresentations of what to expect in life, causing us to have to learn them through years of hapless disappointment and injury. But I'll post that. "THE HUMAN RULES". (here)

Alright, I have to go do my monthly walk to the grocery store, where I'll get a supply
of boxes and cans, and no fresh fruits or vegetables, and very little meat. Bygone-




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Post by Charlie FiftyWatts on Mon Apr 16, 2018 7:11 pm


CLICK, TO SEE THIS AT SWEETWATER... ($1190)





If I had a house with room and the ability to play out loud,
I'd get that so there'd be a complete band's worth of instruments.
And..
oh okay I just wanted to play this:







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Post by Charlie FiftyWatts on Fri Apr 20, 2018 1:43 pm


I'm getting that piano.

It's going in front of my fireplace.

I'm gonna  play this stuff...


Randy Newman -- Short People

Duane Allman --- BB King Medley, Southbound, Just Ain't Easy, Midnight Rider, Please Call Home, Stand Back,
                         Statesboro Blues

Beatles ----------- Don't Let Me Down

Tom Petty ------  Breakdown, Free Fallin', I Need To Know, Mary Jane's Last Dance

David Bowie ---- Rebel Rebel, Starman, Heroes, Ziggy Stardust

Joni Mitchell ---- River (and Woodstock -sung the way John Huntington might have sung it)

Eric Burdon  --   Spill The Wine

Lynyrd Skynyrd- Free Bird, Searching, Tuesday's Gone

Neil Young   --   For The Turnstile, Love Is A Rose, Revolution Blues, Ride My Llama, Rockin' In The Free World,
-----------------   Roll Another Number, Yonder Stands The Sinner

Deep Purple  --  Child In Time, Lazy

Doors ----------  Light My Fire, Roadhouse Blues, LA Woman, Crawling Kingsnake

Rolling Stones - Lady Jane, Fool To Cry, Down In The Hole

Harry Nillson  -  At My Front My Door, Spaceman, You're Breaking My Heart

Mott The Hoople- Irene Wilde, Sea Diver

Carole King ---- It's Too Late, So Far Away

Dr Hook

Elton John  --- Benny & The Jets

Alice Cooper - Some Folks, Dwight Fry, Be My Lover, Desperado, list..

Bee Gees

Peanuts

Blues ---------   I've got a folder of hot numbers picked

70's R & B ---   (same)


A lot of what I picked isn't necessarily 'piano songs', but that's what I find interesting.
There's no rule that you have to play songs as arranged. You can do your own thing.
And I hear a LOT of fun to be had, splashing around on the keys, doing it wrong Smile
I can cover for missing bass parts and electric guitar, and have a gas doing so.
Who knows, I might even take it to a stage and do a bit of comedy. It's possible.

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Post by Charlie FiftyWatts on Fri Apr 20, 2018 2:04 pm


I wish I had the money to be able to play some music.  Oh I can get stuff, through years of deprivation, channeling all funds to collecting it instead of living at all or eating okay. But I'm not free to sing here. Singing is the volume of yelling. Imagine being my neighbor, on the other side of a thin regular house wall, being invaded by HOURS PER DAY of "yelling".  I can't get away with that. And it means I can't play harmonica either. And what use is a guitar without singing? So I can't play any music here. And I've known it all along. I'm just collecting stuff - and feeling 'tired' all the time, because that's what depression is like.

But that doesn't mean I hate rich kids who have careers bought for them that they aren't even talented enough to have. Why would I hate those fuckers? Because they'll inevitably boast that they "worked hard for what they've got"?  ...And neither should I hate humanity itself for rewarding those who were handed being rich, while kicking the poor - as if that's what they each deserve. Because I should be like everyone else, taking pleasure in the plight of the societally abused, scorning at those I helped give pain to by parroting naziisms for those who profit from it. I SHOULD APPLAUD LIKE A MONKEY while laughing at the misery and telling lies like a good republicon toady -a player  -a retard who knows nothing but parrots to pretend he does.  I should be like that.   And since I'm not, my unhappiness is my fault.

After all Trump is GOD, and we should lick his asshole and work for no pay, gratefully, or else be ridiculed - because THAT'S what good is. Ask Barbara Bush, she married that kind of good. After all, the Bush family got rid of the Kennedies, and democracy. They gave us pre-emptive warring. They hocked our jobs, and put us all on camera and electronic surveillance so total we must fear speaking at all, and even worry our smartphones may be recording inside our homes. The Bushes stole what we the people owned collectively, and called it "privatization" to dupe us into imagining it was a good thing. They similarly legalized corporate crime, hailing it as "deregulation" which we were to parrot as "good for America".  They even sucked all the money out of the public school system, so that just the rich kids can get a chance now. And they dared call Bush Sr. "the education president", for this. They bought up our entire free press to use for brainwashing. They gerrymandered away any chance of voting for something else. And again: they "got rid of" The Kennedies. So how dare ANYONE suggest the Bushes aren't the epitome of 'good'?

Truly if there wasn't already imaginary Jesus, we'd have to declare Jeb Bush 'Jesus', and pray for his wisdom.

You see, the thing with me is I lack family values. That's my problem. Because when a towering sage like Dan Quayle says so, it MUST be true. And Sarah Palin should be president of course, because..a retarded leader for a retarded people..it just makes sense. I'm obviously the dummy for not realizing the genius in that! But wait, perhaps you'd like to be told you elected Kid Rock next time? He could have Lee Malia for his dirty-faced fapping 13-year old vice president. And Ted Nugent could head the Department of the Interior. He'd shoot all our cats and dogs for the pleasure of wholesome sport. Truly THAT would be an America to be proud of. And anyone who disagrees, hobble them with lies! Those tards! We need to build a wall! "I know lots of words"! "I'm balanced" and "like really smart"!!! LOVE ME! What Russians?  Everybody grab a pussy!! Let's have a parade!!

And if you don't get this or why I'm talking about those bastards,
consider how poor you've steadily become and who did it to you

while I contemplate that it was you who let them.


Yea.


So...I wish I could play some music,
and not have to eat garbage for food.
I wish I could safely go outside to take a walk.
and drive a car and have friends and a life.
But billionaires of course need more money.
And far be it from me not to wave a flag for evil with all the dolts.
Heil Republicons. Heil Satan. Heil Donald Trump's sausage fingers he grabs pussy with.


Yes I'm gonna get that piano, and do all the pre-work as if I'll play it,
as if something might change and I'll actually get to. But nothing will.


But fuck me anyway. It's funny that I have only pain. My family thought so.



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Post by Charlie FiftyWatts on Mon Apr 23, 2018 10:53 pm



The Neil we used to know...





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Comment I left at a 2016 performance of Down By The River:

The above video is from 1994 when Neil was still vital and rocking.
Now though, in 2018, he's been repetitiously touring that song from the 70's, in his 70's.
And it reminds me of seeing David Cassidy still "singing" (badly, as a senior citizen)
'I Think I Love You' again and again until he died. I understand  wanting to still be what one is,
but there comes a point where it isn't entertainment anymore, it's Al Bundy's "four touch downs".
It's an in-your-face lingering reality check for fans, that they're approaching their own dusty demise.
What's sad is that Neil was the one who stayed young while all else got armchairs & fishing hats.

Well. I guess even ole Neil deserves to go fishing sometime.  Fuck.  Sad





Alright, you might just think I judge too harshly (perhaps, but he really does sing with an elderly warble, and
farm much of the guitar out now). So, judge for yourself. (If you forget about being old, it was a hot show):



There's a ghostly figure (a mannequin, we hope) on the left side of the stage.
I tried to get a look at what the hell that thing is...









Hmm...

Oh I see, it's Daryl Hannah.   Surprised



Oh, and the other 2016 show where I heard him warble (and saw a computer on his mic stand) is here.

(Yea, I just can't get past that warble.)
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Post by Charlie FiftyWatts on Tue Apr 24, 2018 4:14 pm



This is what's on my desktop, motivating me now. It's a list and a picture,
but they sum a lot of growth and learning, getting to here. They are...NEXT!










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Post by Charlie FiftyWatts on Thu May 03, 2018 10:11 pm


My living room...


DRUMS!




TV AREA




GAME AREA








Music room to the left, Coffee straight ahead...





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Watching TV at 1:00 AM with Captain Meow








Captain Meow listens, as I explain the story line





He doesn't understand it however, and is dismayed.






I tell him, "It's okay buddy. We'll watch Lost In Space instead."





"That does it. I'm goin' to eat fish!", he says.





I go with him and get the fish out. He forgives me.







LINK

Surprised



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Post by Charlie FiftyWatts on Tue May 08, 2018 6:18 pm






Solution for baldness...





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Post by Charlie FiftyWatts on Tue May 08, 2018 6:26 pm


My desk




Other desk, where I fix guitars, read and contemplate the universe




Jammin..









The piano's going in front of the fireplace, out in the living room, July 9 June 6!

And there's a kitchen where coffee drinks can be had, with another table to sit at.

And there's a porch through that window, but you get the picture.





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